Smiling is the action of turning the corners of your mouth up, and it has many health benefits. Smiling relieves stress, boosts your immune system, lowers your blood pressure, releases endorphins, pain killers, and serotonin, and creates what is called the 'halo effect' which increases trust in others and aids interpersonal relationships.

Laughter is a response to stimuli that serves as an emotional balancing mechanism. Laughter is one of the only universal constants in language. It probably came about as a warning, evolutionarily; it was a way for early humans and the like to signal less than serious injuries. To say that someone got hurt, but it's not serious and it was their fault anyway, so no need to help, they'll pick themselves up. Laughter is needed for human survival since scientists think it is integral to the limbic system.

Positive psychology is the study of happiness and how people can be happy and what happiness is and if happiness is actually anything, I mean, what are emotions anyway. Stepping blocks. Blocks in the way. Locked doors. Keep the doors locked. Do not open the door.

It's odd, you know, all through childhood, you're told to be curious, to open doors, to read and learn and talk, just not to strangers, but what if the man isn't a stranger, or what if mommy introduces you to the man, and you're trying to resist it because you're a kid and despite what they might say kids can tell when it's wrong, but mother says he's safe and he's good and daddy says go with him, learn, discover, explore, what then? Do not open the door. Ignorance is strength. I hated Big Brother. I was an Orwell fan in high school. Down with the man, fuck the system, transparency, all of that. And I still want to believe that if only the truth was out there everything would be okay. But keep the door locked. Please.

I keep lying to myself and hoping it'll work.

Still can't sleep.


  1. Steam Whistle GunshotJune 21, 2011 at 11:00 AM

    Here's the thing about closed doors. You know something is out there. You know that without that door closed, it will get in. You also start to imagine what will happen to be 100x more frightening than it actually is. When your fear grows of something, so does the power of the fearful object over you.
    Closing the door is like put a cork over tea pot with boiling water in it. Pressure builds up.

  2. You haven't seen the things outside my door.